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Around the Andy Warhol exhibition CHINA

Around the exhibition China

How can you write in China now without looking constantly present roots and routes in this country?

I made my first trip to China in 1981 with the Italy-China Association, one of the few organizations that had access. I remember when I decided I wondered whether it was prudent to deal with that adventure. I arrived with a head full of propaganda that was made in our newspapers: dim lights, the thoughts of Mao that were read during the hours of work, food rationing. I was expecting a dark country, sad and instead found in the cities I visited Beijing, Nanjing, Shanghai, Guangzhou and some interior villages, people did not seem to be traumatized.

In museums saw Chinese small families, people smiling and surprised to see Western faces. Nothing seemed to me as I had imagined, even if the Chinese were still all in gray uniform, the hotels were dirty (very), the city streets crowded with bicycles, there was only one shop for tourists and there was talk of the Cultural Revolution as the greatest scourge who had suffered the country.

Many topics were taboo for the guides who accompanied us. I also saw one of the few women with bound feet. Feet that were not wrapped to make the most beautiful women but only because they could not escape. I did the first group allowed to enter the birthplace of Confucius, when rehabilitated, along with the craft stalls and the main road was not paved, I found an immense library.

from that trip I reported the impression of a peaceful population, despite the evident poverty.

In return I went to study and China for a year and a half. I read everything I could find around: from the Snow Collotti Pichen, the Macciocchi, the sixteenth-century novel Chin P'ing Mei, which alone is a great lesson on China at that time and all times up to Mao.

I was struck by what Mao had realized how the Long March was a miracle. Snow's explanation of why I was adopted communism: the West was the representation of the occupants of nearby Japan and the usurper. The Russia had helped Mao to establish a policy in the country, had sent technicians: then the inevitable choice.

And over time, returned to China in the wake of my son who has spent 10 years creating great works for a major Italian company, I confirmed my views, watching, amazed at the speed of change .

I was in a yard in Yanan when it took three days of travel to get there. Only the train from Kumming Panzihua employed in nine hours and was occupied by mice over the inability to use the toilet. I remember trying to lean traveled as little as possible to the seat and everything around me.

in Shanghai when I was still that wonderful museum (built in 1995 by a Japanese architect), was not realized, when Pudong, with new quarters and the new airport, there was still when the magnificent opera house built in 1998 by architect French Charpentier, was not expected. I had the privilege of living area China not as a tourist but as a resident, in contact with people everyday.

Now, I want to support what is, without Mao, today, that China would not exist. What I regret that proliferate in many articles in our newspapers, is the emphasis of "totalitarianism" and adverse impacts on the country. Even for the abolition of the Pokemon you have not avoided the ridiculous attributing it to an authoritarian attitude. But who knows these cartoons monster knows that it is only good for a child does not See. And I do not think that Chinese children feel discriminated against for it.

But when the newspapers will learn to be serious?

In the July 16, Federico Rampini, La Repubblica correspondent in China, after taking steps to Snow, have said the heroism and the enormous difficulties experienced during the Long March , ends by saying that Snow could have been manipulated and that even then, the liberation of China from the Japanese, were the seeds of dictatorship.

But there realizes, while the bias and bad faith, but also what it means to a revolution in a country where the Forbidden City, has for centuries been the symbol of the relationship between those who wield power and the population? Inside the walls the life and privileges beyond the walls had no right to exist. Was not the totalitarianism of emperors who "ignored" millions of lives?

E 'against this background that China would put the wonderful exhibition was held in Rome at the Quirinal Stables. The famous, amazing terracotta warriors, bronze, porcelain, the warrior jade, all relics from the tombs of the emperors, what are they but a demonstration of power and wealth of the empires that have followed? How many, how many Chinese died in the construction of the tombs that were to ensure welfare and happiness to those in power even after death?

Mao's intentions were to abolish the distance, giving each individual a life of dignity through work and culture.

Of course, he failed even to him, nor can anyone, just anyone in the world. I can not deny that Mao's regime has not brought death, executions, factional struggles, suppression of enemy.

But who knows that a revolution has not had to pay these prices? What's more, a revolution that was for a billion people.

never forget, in '81, a group of Chinese, in their own department store, look amazed and amused because there contending for the fabrics to four pounds.

told me then that the bodies had floated on the Yangtze River and the Gang of Four who had destroyed historical monuments (Of which I saw some ruins).

But that small group of Chinese people enjoy, in the poor department store, had not reached the dignity of life through work, their daily food, the consciousness of being considered? I saw them: did not look distressed.

There is a price to be paid to exit from the inhumane conditions as poor Chinese who lived before the revolution?

We Europeans we have had tragic experiences, in much smaller size and condition. While Mao built in '34, we were on the brink of the abyss with the arrogance of our civilization.

It seems strange that China today is the country that is worrying the major Western powers and we find it hard to put Europe together?

Besides, if there was democracy in China, as we understand it, there would be no economic development that is taking place. Unable to hold together a half billion people without rules, even authoritarian.

We denounce human rights violations, poverty in the countryside, not the freedom of worship. Surely, it will all be true, there is still much to conquer. But it will come to these goals, I'm sure.

How can we Europeans are incapable of eradicating poverty in our countries as large as a province of China, pontificating on a reality which, as a famous phrase, we think we know after a month, you think of need to deepen after a year, and after ten years you are sure you do not understand a lot?

love China for this potential force and vigor, I admire what he is building, and I hope she can bring to life all its people with the dignity it deserves.

Kate Playground Taking A Shower

The art of repetition *

age of eight years Andy was a nice plump-looking baby, high forehead, blond hair separated from one side, eyes long, dark, insightful, humorous.

His mother, a woman from breast provocative, eyes and lips accentuated by makeup, hair curlers, curling by, if he carried with him everywhere, even when unknown men met or when he cleaning in a department store.

Andy adored her, followed her obediently did not protest when they left, without knowing why, hours sitting in a chair waiting for his mother to come out of a room, always different, with a sir, always different. It was the nurse had said, and went to treat patients at home. Andy waited, later, a toy car as a prize, or to design an album or a package of those butts that it likes strawberry. When mum was a cleaner in the largest department store in Pittsburgh, Andy enjoyed it turned to the shelves full of cans, bags, bras, sweet. Sometimes I even touched them, without letting them fall though, as recommended by the mother.

'Andy, where are you? "The item exceeded the hum of the vacuum cleaner.

"Where are the lipstick."

"Do not touch, otherwise I can not take. Will not you regret it? "

" No, Mom, no. "

So, one day after another, in the hours outside of school.

At school Andy had a deep blue-eyed boyfriend Glenn. It was the first thing that Andy had noticed. Glenn was a year older than he was taller and robust and very kind. When Andy gave him his drawings - because Andy knew how to draw very well - they collected a red card which he kept under the counter.

It was a picture of Andy that caught the attention of the school. One morning I called him into his office and asked him to join a small exhibition inside.

Then he stroked long.

At fifteen a boy Andy was not very tall, thin, full of pimples that disturbed the dark eyes and long thoughtful air.

At school there was Glenn, went to college two years before, and there was even the principal, replaced by a fat lady friendly.

Andy, for some years now, no longer accompanies his mother. He remained at home waiting for her and often would come back tired and restless.

"Do not you look happy, Mom," he said one evening when he returned with the dress and makeup in a mess crumpled.

She began to weep bitterly, went to change and said

"I will pass. Eat the meantime, you will not want me to regret it? "

" No, Mom, no. And he went back to drawing.

Andy especially loved drawing, making portraits, use colors. He had a picture of Glenn and remade with deep blue eyes, and the mother with the heavy makeup.

Twenty years Andy was not very tall, thin, long and dark eyes and mirthless. His mother had died of tumors in a 'few months in utero. Before expiry had said

"Be wise, Andy, you will not want to hurt me, right?"

"No, Mom, no."

And she ran out of Pittsburgh.

He went to New York with his few belongings and the desire to draw.

understood Glamour, the famous magazine, which was looking for young talent. The director was kind, I spent a long time in the study, as did the headmaster.

Andy was hired.

began his sensational rise in the world of advertising. She remembered the deep blue eyes of Glenn, strong colors he used his mother, cans stacked on the shelves of department stores in Pittsburgh and began to create, to create non-stop billboards, posters, covers.

knew a photographer, Andrew. Often called him into his study to do to attend sittings. Often remained long with him. After each match the creativity and exploding Andy trying out driven by the fury of the relationship just had. He soon felt increasingly needed.

Forty years Andy was not very tall, thin, long and sad eyes in a face that was beginning to give way.

lay in a hospital bed in New York seriously wounded by a woman, the founder and only member of the Society for to pieces men which was introduced in his study and had downloaded a gun on him.

It was saved, but in two months the hospital had seen and reviewed his life as a repetition of his paintings.

had made of things in those years. Maybe if it was too close a budget through the collection of bills, air tickets, postcards, city maps, photos of people who had fueled the reputation of both Factory.

Yeah, the Factory. A 'idea that had come from its being primarily a commercial, creative, a creative loner. He accepted all in what looked like a multinational corporation: aristocrats and tramps, hookers and transvestites, artists and criminals.

Factory was his most brilliant ideas. More cans of Campbells or Martison Coffee or bottles of Coca Cola. Of those people, after the first surprise, would no longer surprised, but the Factory, yes. Each was found in there, everyone had fulfilled his secret desires, without abandoning inhibitions to that environment friendly and challenging.

Andy, patron and exploiter, reigned all exhibiting his homosexuality and his depravity, exposing it as a product of great stock more to continuously feed the myth that his need for a genuine show.

He was left alone, inside, he remained what he was satisfied with the butts of strawberry. The meaning of death if they wore. What was his painting, if not the representation of the dissolution of what is there and disappears due to consumption, reckless use of images and things?

"I realized that whatever I was doing had to be Death."

Here, he was driven by an unbridled need to see others and be humble and bow in front of the boy who had spent hours in small rooms or in the bleak corridors of a deserted department store dirt.

A fifty-eight years Andy was not very tall, thin, long eyes, behind round glasses and serious ones. The flaccid face marked by lines on the sides of his mouth drooping. white hair combed as eight years, separated by one side, sometimes covered with a white wig, a little 'eccentric and a bit' ridiculous.

He was famous in the world. One of the artistic geniuses recognized the 900. Cans to his, her Marilyn, his Mao Zedong, his Elvys, its flowers that formed part of the major museums and collections of the most exclusive, it allowed him to add from the picture of Leonardo's Last Supper.

the collection of tickets and cards and airline tickets were added to objects of all types combined, shamelessly, in the halls of the factory and in his own home.

In a moment of foreboding loneliness, Andy had himself photographed with make-up colors that he used his mother's eyes, magnified by the eye shadow, eyebrows marked, the heavy blush, the mouth is marked by a dark lipstick, her hair hidden under a blonde wig-serving.

Under that picture, magnified out of proportion, framed and hoisted on one of the walls of his bedroom, they found him dead February 22, 1987.

sad, grotesque, tragic.

* Andy Warhol - 1928-1987

Milan, July 30, 2006

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healing the soul, the heart of hospitality meets

Listen to collaborate in writing the paper. this is a piece that will be published in next issue

The entry of family members - No. 18 Healing: reception -

healing the soul, warmth Heart

"I was raped. This was his chance. "

By calm, simple, Peter said this sentence, for us women contains fear and anxiety. It is the tone, however, who has been objectified history dramatic, metabolized and broke a lot to say to another as if he were telling the plot of a novel.

The 'other', in this case, I'm sitting next to this white American than forty years, in a plane that takes us from Frankfurt to Portland, Oregon. Peter is an agricultural engineer. Back home after two weeks, his wife Beatrice, and their daughter, Alicia.

As often happens in a long journey, we began to talk to banality. He, perhaps encouraged by my white hair, was told, first superficially, then on personal things, and eventually was abandoned in the confidence that intervenes between strangers because thinking never to see more reassuring and can give vent in a loud voice, to his own thoughts.

"He may have followed the events in Rwanda," he tells Peter after a long silence.

"Yes," I tell him sure, "I saw a nice play."

"He will know of the genocide of 1994, the ferocity with which ethnic communities are addressed. My wife is Rwandan. He lived in hell and you have saved by a miracle. "

We had already said everything about Portland, the pleasure of living there, the serenity of his family, the joy of having a child when no longer mattered.

Faced with the realization that my confidence gross ignorance and I feel guilty watching this man pleasant, open-faced, almost family is so typically American.

Forget the drowsiness that gives me the xamamina, I let go surface considerations that are made in situations like that, and I understand that I find myself facing a man of quality. I have to give very careful if you do not want to offend him.

"I'm sorry. A painful experience. "I say with great participation. "How did you meet?"

"I worked in Rwanda for a year and she worked for a Dutch company with whom I had business contacts. Just a friendly meeting. When I left I wrote until I knew who worked in the Netherlands. I was surprised that he had abandoned the country and family, but I thought an opportunity work.

I did not know, however, who had been forced to flee and the company he worked for had helped her to safety. I did not know she had been beaten, tortured, hunted. I did not know they had taken away the family to kill her. I knew nothing, despite knowing well the tensions in the country. Beatrice, then, was twenty years old and very beautiful.

Wishing to see her strongly, I reached in the Netherlands: a woman transformed by fear, anxiety, rootlessness.

I realized, looking at her, suffering what could be taken to the extreme limit. The atrocities experienced, with such modesty and neglect together, I have revealed his mind, his sensitivity. I already knew that I was in love with her, from Rwanda, but at that moment I loved her with a transport I would not have imagined. I asked her to marry me and come to America with me. Four years ago, Alicia was born. "

I was so moved by this story to want to know about Beatrice. Maybe it was not part of the ritual of casual acquaintances and perhaps, to meet this requirement, Peter was uncomfortable. But he reading my heart, I said: 'Beatrice and Alice waiting for me at the airport. She likes to know? "

I said yes with his head, murmuring:" Thank you.

After landing and sbrigate control practices, we have initiated with the output.

When I saw a black woman, tall, delicate features, elegant in ethnic dress, in her arms a tiny, curly-haired blacks, I recognized Beatrice and Alicia.

were safe, they were healthy, were serene.

Mi, 11.10.2006

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Marai Marai - The right woman

Marai Marai meets

Having been fascinated the reading of The Embers (1942), I'm reading back the other books published by Sandor Marai publisher Adelphi.

This order of reading back to the roots of the characters and lends itself to considerations of great interest. I dare say you can discover some of the obsessions and perhaps human suffering Mara.

Love with a capital A, it seems, at first glance, the major theme of his stories. Eternal love understood as a passion, "the fullness of life" between man and woman love understood as a great friendship and loyalty men. And only for men: the friendship between a man and a woman is not considered. The woman is the medium of love.

Actually Love is an excuse to lift a veil on ambiguity, on the rivalry, hate on, the most secret passions that dwell within us and that each of us exercises under the umbrella of love. They are ruthless characters who entrusts this task Marai, are often ugly (the Casanova de the recitation of Bolzano actor de Rebels ), cause the player to recognize the true and false, the 'innocent and the wicked, the victim and the victimizer. But then, when everything seems understandable, creeps a question: is everything really so clear? And the reader goes from hero to solve the riddle.

For simplicity, I analyze the elements that connect the stories and intertwine in an unmistakable way.

Women

The Mara relationship with women, even with the Woman , must have been suffered much if the writer felt the need to make a disputed subject. The only two female characters who live an active role, are Eszter, I The ereditàEszter ( 1939), and Francesca, it The recitation of Bolzano (1940).

The first Eszetr, a woman is passive, resigned, a love lived twenty years before he left the incurable wounds. Victim of his domain yet can not get rid of the arrogance of the man who has deluded "the unhappy love never ends."

The second, Francesca, while still loving Casanova aged , fat and poor, without any attraction, it feels the weakness of a great memory of love, but also feel the strength that comes from the consciousness of a time gone by.

Francesca has a glossy shine and this lets you control the passions. And while confessing - a Casanova vendutosi cowardly to count, her husband - a love that will never end, abandoned him leaving him in the squalor of its reality, in a cold room where the fire has died a long time. "to indicate that one day all the passions become ashes."

And 'the only woman, narrated by Mara, that for a long night talking and dominates with its passionate arguments about love, beauty, life, death, fate, a man who dares not answer because he signed a pact of treason: "It did not help to nothing I have offered you the pleasure and peace, purity and regeneration? " But he is silent.

The other women, while the protagonists of the events narrated in the novel do not live as if ghosts conjured by men who have loved and continue to consume their lives in the memory of that 'lost love.

Krisztina is the woman he loved The Embers. Noble, mysterious and treacherous, and emerge when it is spoken, dead for years, the two men who owned reunite old now but still need to clarify that betrayal. Their meeting, in an interview, which takes up practically the whole book, lays bare how this betrayal has left a deep wound to her husband, the general, and how much it was for Konrad's friend since the days of exclusive college , a way to clear social differences (which has unconsciously led him with great difficulty), and rivals that friendship so deep and generous that he never could reciprocate equally. Its social and economic conditions have not let permission and that weight has never abandoned. Betray his friend, making love to his wife, is the despicable act that allows Konrad liberating but to flee rebuild his life away, free of the comparisons, free from remorse.

Another woman, Anna, in Divorce in Buda, (1935) living dead in the long indictment which Imre, a middle-aged doctor, nail all night Kristof the judge. That court would have to say the day after their divorce. Imre but can not break his relationship with Anna except through death. Indeed, the causes and Kristof goes to confess to rebuilding, as in a dream, a hypothetical attraction that would feed the same Kristof for so many years ago by Anna Anna, unbeknownst to him, a woman contention.

Kristof's character would be General de "The Embers young: noble, perfect, with the responsibility of great traditions, like the character of Imre could be a precursor Konrad: experienced modest origins as a kind of frustration, against the noble class, while Anna Krisztina anticipates, immensely loved and lost. Divorce in Buda seems the plot, then developed and perfected, the masterpiece The Embers.

The social

Besides that The Embers, apparent gradient from the friendship and never expressed feelings and never dealt with fairly, Divorce in Buda and , that the difference of caste is another issue that Marai wishes to highlight in his books.

clear it very well The Rebels (1930).

A group of young people, united by belonging to the same school, rejecting the idea of \u200b\u200bactually living in a small town - devastated by World War I - decided to form a "band" to act and behave outside the rules imposed by their upbringing and their environment. Everyone feels bound in brotherhood by sharing this secret, do not feel any difference between them . From Abel, the son of a wealthy doctor, he feels "the effluvia acres penetrating ether and tincture of iodine that filtered of medicines from the cabinet," in Bela, son of the butcher , "around which floated an aroma of oriental spices, herring, and fresh fruit " to Erno, the son of a shoemaker, " that smelled of glue and leather unfinished, "at Tibor , son of a colonel in the war, with a very ill mother, in whose house "ruled the smell of poverty and disease full of lavender."

"The trades of the fathers of odors permeate their homes unmistakable." Marai says at the beginning of the novel to warn the reader that the differences between the "gang" there are and odors are a compelling track.

complicit in the war - parallel to that of their fathers - fighting against society; compact in the games that they invent and develop, they end up not seeing, in their innocence, the boundary between reality and game. They do not know the risks and go into a tragedy when they discover that unexpected Erno, the son of a shoemaker, has betrayed them by denouncing their secret games. And here it explodes, in all its tragic hatred, class conflict, never subsided and never born. Erno responds to allegations of his companions: "The thousands of times every single day, I kicked you in one way or another? No, it was not your fault. It is never to blame. You were and feel the goodness in person. I hated your touch. I hated your kindness. I hated you when handling a knife or fork. When you greet someone. When she smiled. When thank you for something, an object or information ... I hated your gestures, your look, the way you got up and I would sit. It is true that these things can be learned. I understand that there is money, power, strength, knowledge that can compensate for this. What can I live a hundred years and become a millionaire, and when you rot in the crypt some time - because you others also died there be in a building around you, dogs do not like us, that there are in the cellar already live - even then I feel unhappy because I will think of the way in which Tibor knew apologize to a passerby, who had accidentally hit with a wave of his hand and a smile ... I do not know how we can purify, but I feel cleaner just thinking of you all into the mud up to his neck. And in the end you die. "

Hatred hatched and eventually confessed, causes the suicide of Erno that fails to survive his own feelings.

representation

The recitation of the mask, is another of the themes beloved by Mara, in fact, as mentioned before, maybe the most popular theme. Treaty as psychologically deeper than we can say that this is in one way or another, in each of his books. Each character seems to have a form, each character seems to belong to a precise and sophisticated screenplay.

course it The recitation of Bolzano becomes crucial meeting between Casanova and Francesca. For a whole night confront, confess, speak of absolute love, dressed in costume and with their faces covered: she dresses in men's and women's clothing him. The roles exchanged reality and fiction, of disguise destinies.

Marai is to say to Frank: "And you ran away in vain, because now here we are again, facing each other, and look forward to when we take off the mask, my love : there are still many, many masks among us, and we will remove one after another before finally seeing each other with open face. Do not rush, do not panic, do not reach for the mask, do not throw it again! It is no coincidence that today, after so long, we are left with the mask on your face, when each of us is freed from his prison and we are here, facing one another, do not rush to shed the mask, because there's another below, made of bones, meat and skin, but is a mask just like silk. We will throw a lot of other masks before I can see and know your face. But I know that somewhere, far, far away , there is also your face different, and that's what I have to see one day, because I love you. "

And all what you say what you belong to? To recite or to life? The charm of fiction or the reality of suffering and abandonment?

Marai gives the reader all the reflections on truth.

It Rebels becomes fatal encounter between the "gang" and a failed actor who fascinates them ambiguous with its transformations, winning their trust, enter into their games by providing costumes scene, makes them believe free "from the tentacles of the discipline that had oppressed them in their childhood." Serve of their ingenuity and their fear for his shady dealings. "But the actor had the ability that no other was with. ... "He could talk to them like no adult had never been able to do. ..." The actor stated, driven by the same necessity that forced them to play well, distorting the reality behind the faces of a painful character, form. Play a part for him was a need, as well as they had a law. Perhaps the actor most authentic experience the movements of his life just as he was on stage, just as the boys had the feeling that their lives behind the screen of reality was more authentic than any reality. "

And it is he, the actor, the masked character, which leads them to tragedy, cynically.

It Confessions of a bourgeois (1934), autobiography of the writer, are found the roots of his novels. It 's the key to understanding the book by Mara.

They understand the important passages of his life, and, as in his books, the women accompany him but not seen. We do not know much about them, even if he loves a veil of modesty protects them from the reader's curiosity.

Unforgettable pages devoted to Berlin and Paris of the time. Beautiful city views and the experiences of a young foreign journalist in search of affirmation.

Last book published earth, earth (1969), no more complete an autobiography recounting the wanderings of a young ambitious bourgeois, but the suffering of a civilian during the occupation of Budapest by the Nazis before, the Communists, then. In the pages that talk about the humiliation of the beloved city, you hear the bourgeois in his wounded pride, after all, does not demand a living thing who does not belong to her class, but suffers for what he , the bourgeois, the intellectual is private. "The bureaucratic cruelty, mechanized and impersonal it is humiliating for men, while the individual is content to cause tormenti.E now, still in uniform, cruelty had come back to Budapest."

The interest of this book, passionate and painful, and also make us feel more like Mara belonged to Mittleuropa a great writer but a writer close, contemporary, belonged to our history.

Yes, Sandor Marai in his novels, makes us reflect on love, but there is a reflection deeper on truth and fiction which are owned in the same way, to our lives.

September 3, 2002